I was christened Emily Patricia Bond; my middle name is something that has always interested me. It is after my maternal grandmother. ‘Patricia’ is a piece of work derived from an urge to know my grandmother. She tragically died of a brain haemorrhage when she was 38, my mother was 12. My mother showed me a contact sheet of Patricia from 1957 in about 2014 and I have been very keen to work with it ever since. I have chosen this year to create this work because in 1957 Patricia was 22, the same age as me now. Because of Patricia’s premature death, I have never been able to look at my grandmother in the eye, this photographic work is the closest thing I can do to try and engage with her. ‘Patricia’ is a way for me to try and experience her presence through photography.